Friday, April 9, 2010
Fathers
What is a boy to do? My life is forced to be lived as if my father never exsisted. Not because I choose not to talk to him. But because he chooses to avoid me. I call when I know he's home...no answer. I leave messages with my phone number...no response. The only way he'll contact me is on the internet. It makes me wonder if I've hurt him in some way. There's nothing more that a boy needs more than his father. I need someone to emulate. I need a role model that isn't famous. I need guidelines and advice about being a man. You can only learn so much from books and television. I had never met my dad until I was three. For my fifth birthday my father gave me his last name. I've always loved my last name. There's no advice I can hear that would obsolve the confusion and pain that comes with the current state of our relationship. Pray for me.
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I pray everyday the he wakes up and realizes what a wonderful son he his missing out on.
ReplyDeleteJohn, you were a child. You are still a child. In a father-child relationship, children need love and acceptance, no matter what their age. A child can not do something to hurt a parent in the way you are describing. In the relationship with our fathers, the father is the grown up. The father is the one who is at fault if a child has reached out and is not acknowledged. I'm sure you have heard this a thousand times, but you did not do this. He may come around and he may not, but it is no reflection on you.
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